Well if that's love, it comes at much too high a cost...

Too long I've been afraid of losing love, I guess I've lost
Well if that's love, it comes at much too high a cost

Defying Gravity - Idina Menzel and Kristin Chenoweth, 'Wicked' soundtrack

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I think I've finally figured out what it feels like to love someone you can't have. I probably shouldn't even be feeling this way, but I can't help it. It's on my mind all the time. I really can't stop thinking about it, even though it hurts more and more as I continue to think about it because I know it can't ever happen. It's just now hit me that I feel this way about this person, just within the last few days. I don't know how to stop thinking about it though. I really want them, but there's too much keeping us apart. I never could've dreamed it was like this - I've heard people talk about it, but I never realized how much it hurts until now. Just sitting here now, thinking about it too much, it makes me feel like I can hardly breathe. I don't even know how to say it to that person - we're friends, and what if they don't feel the same? I just don't know.